Life has been quite insane. Between intense family issues, education decisions and rocky living arrangements, I haven't had much breathing room. Lately, it's as if I'm making things more complicated for everyone around me, and not the other way around.
Right now I feel as if I'm on a balance beam, trying not to fall to either side. And the worst part of it is the stress it's causing for everyone watching me. I can't seem to stick to a decision or stay on any set path, and I know it can't be easy for others to see.
Usually, I convince myself that everything will be better once I move to Victoria, or once theater starts up again, or whatever else I think will distract me from the more difficult side of things. The problem lies in the realization that there are no quick fixes to the things I'm going through right now. Dealing with issues head-on is the only way to work them out, if only I could get myself to quit with the laziness.
I know that I'm not making much sense right now, but at least it's a bit of a window into where my mind is at. There ya go. I'm not even going to re-read what I just wrote, because then it won't be the raw rant that I mean it to be.
