Wednesday, January 6, 2010

lean on me.

Alright, so quite a bit has happened in the last 24 hours, but I'm not sure I want to revisit the details. Basically, I made a mistake, and so I had to fix it. Luckily the issue is now resolved, but it's going to take a little while before I'm fully okay with it.
Here's a funny little fact about me: I am a pushover. But only when it comes to certain things. I mean, I forgive people much to quickly - people who have hurt me, lied to me, or walked all over me. But does any of this really bother me? No. What really bothers me, in the end, is having somebody upset with me.
I know that this makes me the typical "caregiver". And really, I am. I don't know what made me like that. I'm not complaining, though - I am who I am, and I'm happy with it.
Gosh, I just hate it when people are upset.
I often admire people who can hold grudges. I mean, if those type of people are upset, the person who made them that way works hard to earn their forgiveness. However, people who know me may simply assume that they have my forgiveness already. And in all honesty, they probably do. Sometimes I think that I would get more respect if I learned to hold my ground a bit better - but I've never really been that way.
On a different note, the busiest month I can ever remember having has now started. Not that I'm complaining - much of it is the good kind of busy. But it will most definately be stressful.
The thought of being rejected from University weighs on my mind every day. It's a definite possibility. Not only are my classes quite mixed up at the moment, but my grades arn't the best, either. Time to step it up a bit, I think.
I remembered last night, that I'm supposed to be writing a short play (running time: about 15 minutes) for my best friend to direct in her theater class. No pressure, right? The problem is, I tend to be much too cliche when it comes to story telling. If anyone has any ideas for an issue that I could write about (perhaps one that isn't often brought on to the stage), please let me know.
Oh, and I'm going skating tomorrow! If you took one look at me, you would never even guess that I was once a figure skater. But it was once my love, before the arts took over my life.
This is actually a lie - I've always considered figure skating to be an art, itself. I mean, dancing on ice? Do you know how much skill that takes?
Well, trust me - it takes a lot of it.
Anyways, I'm quite excited for that. Some physical excersize to clear my mind would be lovely right about now.
- Karebear

2 comments:

  1. I understand something of how you feel. I'm not very good at standing up for myself, and will in some cases defer to a more strong-willed person to avoid confrontation. That's a habit that thus far is taking a lifetime to kick.

    As for coming up with an idea for a play, keep in mind that, in the words of the Barenaked Ladies, "it's all been done". The joy of originality comes in putting an old story in new clothes. How about a family conflict? Those are always rife with juicy conflict, comedic or dramatic; and just about everyone can relate to them. A funeral/family reunion, or a birthday perhaps? Love stories never seem to go out of style. Or how about something with black-mail and scandal? A business mogul, revered for his strong business ethics is confronted by someone, a journalist perhaps, who has some scandalous information on him. Or you could take an old myth perhaps, and reinvent it into a contemporary setting. Just brainstorming, here...

    Lovely photos, by the way. You've a good eye, Kierra!

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  2. Dear Liam.
    I do almost exactly the same thing. Maybe this will be another goal to strive for during this year?
    Also, thanks very much for the effort you've put into brainstorming. You'd be suprised at how much that helped!

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