I can see a lot of life in you.

I woke up this morning (well, more like this afternoon), and realized that there are only 2 days left of Christmas break. There were so many things I needed to get done before I went back to school, and I still haven't accomplished any of it. If anyone happens to discover the cure to chronic procrastination, let me know.

I've been doing a lot of preperation for University this past week. It has made me feel incredibly old. Not the kind of old that you may initially think of, but just older than I thought I would ever actually become.

When you are young, and you think far into the future, it's hard to imagine actually being there anytime soon. I mean, right now, marriage seems like this crazy idea that I don't need to ponder anytime soon. But I once thought the exact same thing about applying to post-secondary. It was a right of passage that I would watch on Television, but never something that I would need to think about in the near future.

I was very, very wrong.

Time goes by fast. Have you ever been sitting outside in the summer, enjoying a conversation or some music, and then a plane flies right overhead? You're annoyed because the roaring overpowers everything around you, and you think it won't ever go away. Then suddenly the sound is gone, and you can hear again.

This is how quickly time goes by. You think it's taking forever, and then you blink.

So I here I am, safe and sound under the protection of my family, being taken care of at every turn. This comfort I have experienced my entire life is about to end, and it doesn't quite seem real. What if I can't do it? What if I let my family down? What if I end up right back where I started?

Or worse, what if I succeed? What if I am on my own from here on out, and I actually don't need anybody?

Now that is a scary thought.

Luckily, I'll be busy enough this month to be distracted from these thoughts. From diploma exams and doctors appointments to theater auditions and family gatherings, I won't have much time to dwell on what's coming. Even today, I'll be cleaning, and then hopefully seeing some good friends tonight, as well as the movie Avatar. I honestly have no idea what it's about, but it's said to be outstanding. I'm always up for a good movie.

Anyways, I should really start my day, since it's almost half over already.

Love,

- KareBear