I've had an awfully eventful weekend, but as much fun as it was, it's the realizations I've made about myself that have really made it memorable.
They say you learn from our mistakes. I believe that this is definitely the right way to learn. But, unfortunately, some people continue to touch the stove, continuing to get burned, and don't stop until the burn is bad enough to really make them think twice. I happen to be one of these people. Lucky for me, these "burns" come in quick succession, swiftly correcting my moral vision.
I've come to the decision that I am honestly happy being single. I'm about to really start my life - why would I want to get caught up in a relationship at this point? Yes, the feelings I have for that one person (lets call him Bob) are always weighing on my mind. But Bob is quite out of reach, especially right now, and I may as well enjoy our friendship the way it is, instead of stressing about "what if's". I'm quite excited about this year, and I'm not going to let my own insecurities spoil it.
The recent lack of braces isn't a bad ego boost, either. Perhaps tomorrow, I won't be quite as upbeat about things as I am right now, but I'm determined to find ways to keep this emotional high going. I want to take a painting class, I want to continue yoga, and I want to take every artistic opportunity the world decides to throw at me. I feel I've been ignoring myself a bit, as far as potential goes. Maybe I need to develop myself a bit more, intellectually speaking.
I had so much more to say, but suddenly I can't remember any of it...
This calls for a later blog.
Hasta luego.
- Karebear
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